Orestes Knows He Scraped The Door When He Was Not There
My old wooden door! I'd have been able to find your keyhole with my eyes shut. And that notch there—I might have made it… -Jean-Paul Sartre, The Flies
Orestes knows he scraped the door when he was not there. “Yo hubiera vivido ahí,” he said, I would have passed through ten thousand times and more. “Yo hubiera”, he said, I would have, if there, known your names better than my own would have said them ten thousand times and more. But, no, this isn’t my country anymore. I would’ve liked to know your names, faces, I try remembering now. But, I’ve tricked myself out. And this isn’t my country anymore. When guilt tries to bore into Orestes, “Yo soy libre,” he says, but I try to remember why I tricked myself out of the language. America has clichéd in my mind into me. “Yo soy” no, I am..I am I cannot lose America I would steal. Your language, America I said I would pass everything for you. “I am...I am” America I cannot lose the door I never scraped. Orestes knows he scraped the door when he was not there. Expand